CrazyJoe's Asylum

The Demons Within, and the constant fight for Exorcism

I wrote another deep thought article, scary - I know. However again, to preserve the Crazy Joe persona I enjoy, I won't subject you to it - you'll have to just click the link below!

How could that mother strike her kid repeatedly?
The Husband snap and hit his wife
Someone take the family pet out and 'lose' it, claim the gate was left open.

Sure, we know some people are just asses, but then you hear how they swear they feel regret, remorse, and they can't explain how, why, they did it and they can't find the gut to even apologize.

Everyone one of us deals with demons, some of us less than others. Some of us can actually handle some of them, while others just let the demon take over. Worse yet, is when you grow up within a family and you can't even differiant the demons from 'normal'.

People that grow up in that type of enviroment have two paths when they 'grow up'. Accept that behavior as normal, or realize it's not and swear on their grave they won't ever be like that. That's if they are lucky. Sometimes they never realize something was wrong with it, and live life blind. You know what I'm talking about. Drugs are not a problem. There's no such thing as being an alchoholic. Might makes right....the examples go on.

Which brings me to the point, how many of us are the ones that woke up and realized that something was wrong, and are in a never ending constant battle to be unlike your parents. And worse, when you realize the one thing going totally against you is that it's in your blood to be like them.

You unconcsiouly accept boozing it up is OK, and constantly fight "Its ok to drink" but you keep yourself away from it to the point that its never more than a dozen drinks a year - hell, even nondrinkers would sip the wine at church! People even think you are being foolish, as nobody that is an alchoholic that drinks so little, and yet you claim you don't want the drink to even avoid becoming one.

Or maybe you are so against drugs but you drink, that you even won't tolerate giving time to those that just smoked a joint or two - when some experts claim heavy booze drinking is worse than pot. Why, only because a loved one abused drugs, and you don't want to deal with anyone related to that.

Your family history line is known for being short lived. Obese men that died young. And here you are, a statisic in America and overweight. You obsese about keeping yourself thin, and nobody understands you when you say its NOTHING to do with how people see you, its how you see yourself.

You don't want to have kids, because your came from a really screwed up family and don't think you would want to subject your kids to it. I know quite a few in this category, which an outsider could simply say that you know whats bad, DONT DO IT. but then, you are fighting the only things you learned growing up, and the fact that maybe that crap is in your DNA. These people don't even want to RISK the scenario of beating their own kids, or worse - molesting them. That experience to them was so damn bad, they never want to even risk it.

That's the worse, when folks start to think you're just nuts because you go overboard to try and reject what you could become. And all of these, of course if you told them the REASONS you are obsessive like this, they would no longer think you are nuts, but just really realy afraid of what kind of demons would pop out of you. However, almost all the cases here are those that are ones you would hate to talk about.

So few folks would feel comfortable to admit that Ol Mom and Dad were drug addicted alchoholics that beat your brother or molested you. AND WITH GOOD REASON! That's some heavy stuff to tell anyone. It's simple just to tell folks you're nuts, or just stubborn, maybe even ignore it. Well maybe so many of the people you know you would never label them with harsh feelings ever again, if you simply knew why they act they way they do - they are harboring demons.

Posted by CrazyJoe at August 28, 2003 05:14 PM